Why are my eyes open cant leave this fetal position
This mental condition leaves me deprived of all ambition
Im in no need to do shit
Lay in this bed and be a victim of my own personal apocalypse and cerium stance
Stuck in my own head
But to outside world im mindless
Married to a dirty shirt and lounge pants
Laying in my stomach
Lifeless
Someone did me dirty
And replay all the situation in my brain all day and night
Curtains drawn I got no perception of dark or light
All i know, i lay bed ridden
Displaying concerns with actually giving in
They got a few description for my condition
I got a accurate one
No interest in living
Tv's on but i dont hear shit
The images just flash
Ill probably get worse looking at a news cast
My family thinks im fine
But thats a starch contrast
Giving my life away, Anthony kedis chillin by the underpass
Any other day this is comfortable as hell
But the depression got me feeling like im sleeping on broken glass
The feelings dont amend
As i stay numb in my bed
Tried to go in my living room annt even worth it
Theres water on mother board Im gonna short circuit
No real purpose
Annt showered in days
So my own waist i lay
Part of me wants to end it
Part of me wants to get parole for this sentence
no conjucal visits
No commissary
This is solitary
Until i escape the dead fantasy that comes and in prisons my sanity annually
Usually imposed by financial instability
Passed down from my family
Ending up lonely
For eternity
Until i see sun light its another day in bed trying to pass the time